Delight... serenity.... and words

Talked with one of my girl friends earlier. Her hubby is deployed and they are on a comm blackout. Which for those non military it means no calls no Internet nothing comes out of the area. It can be caused by any number of things in reality, but for the military wife, it is the realization that someone could be getting notification of what our hearts fear. That something has happened to our soldier. Something that cannot be undone. We pray for that spouse and we pray that it's not us and we mourn for their loss and weep  with relief that ours finally does call. It brings clarity to everything we have said, or might say in the future. Could those be our last words to our loved one? Would they really know that I loved and cherished them? None of us wants those last words of an email or on the phone to be something we'd regret or wish we could take back. They had that argument, of course it was something trivial, but at that moment it mattered. Now with a few days of not hearing she wishes she could take it back, however the last words from him were not so good. She is hurt by them, and her head and heart tell her he's ok where ever he is, but it doesn't change the fact that those were the last words from him. One thing to keep in mind whether your hubby is a lawyer, a cook, a soldier, a fireman, a landscaper, or any number of other jobs. He is your love, he is your other half, sometimes your better half. He is the one who matters most and to love him means to love yourself. Don't let the last words every be those of hate, anger or frustration. That doesn't mean you have to settle everything before you go, but  you'll always love them and that should be what they know every time you leave.

Now onto today, Love takes delight!

Don't just follow your heart, lead your heart. Don't let feelings and emotions lead you. Take delight in your spouse again, like you did as newlyweds. In a sense, remember and relearn what you love about your spouse. The dare, to purposefully neglect something that you would normally do to spend time with your spouse. And do something that they enjoy, just be together. Now with him there and me here, that's a little hard...but I can show avid interest in what we talk about and what he wants to talk about. 

So much has happened over the past week, and where I would normally not take these strides, in believing the best, and delighting in my spouse this past weekend and the mud run that he wants me to do with him I think I've satisfied this dare. He looked like he had a ball and I would love to enjoy that with him.  But in believing the best, I am trying not to look for reasons that he would be untruthful with me. Or things that he might be hiding from me. Rather I am focusing on me and what I need to do to ensure I'm doing the best I can to give him what he deserves, and if it doesn't work out I'll know I truly did everything I could to save us and it wasn't me that was the problem. 
xoxo
till tomorrow!